back! haha... i took off for tmr cause i was juz too tired of the stupid life in there.... the new batch has been fine though there are a couple of weird characters.... last week, one mentally unstable recruit came up to me and put his head on my shoulder and started crying.... wth.... i was stunned there for a few seconds... then when the other commanders tried approach him and talk to him, he totally ignored them and stuck to me.... i brought him to one corner and talked to him.... and i couldn't understand a single thing that he said.... he was totally incoherent with his words.... and he would say one thing one min, and then say a totally different thing the next.... i was going out of my mind.... it was crazy... being a commander is definately not easy.... you are forced to be instructors, commanders, counsellors, motivators, lifeguards and even clerks when you're in there.... screw up man... noticed i used the word "forced"...

there's a dutch guy in my platoon.... huge looking guy who somehow reminds me of leon of nyp... haha... dunno why though.... cause leon was quite skinny... heh.... then there's a pair of twins who coincidentally are in the same section... what are the odds of that happening... one recruit was also my junior in poly... same course and all that.... hah... so far, they have not been giving me too much trouble... i guess that's the difference between the poly batch and jc batch.... this poly batch doesn't ask too much questions and they do things fast, which i like..... unlike my previous jc batch.... haha... ok ok, i'm not about to start on the jc and poly students thing... haha... both have their positive sides and their negative sides.... i've been to both jc and poly so i roughly know the types of people from both sides....

on thurs, i got poked 3 times by a pretty experienced medic.... and i do mean an experienced medic.... i was having my blood tested and in came this medic... the first 2 tries were unsuccessful and he looked pretty stressed at this point of time... i was cursing and cursing in my heart and i knew that he would not be able to do it the third time also... and juz then, their officer came in and realised the situation that i was in... the medic was screwed by the officer and they got an older medical guy to come in to take my blood... and he was successful at his first attempt... phew! after that, the medic came up to me and apologised... but he still had the cheek to tell me that i was his first failure all these while.. wth... ok, but why me!!! why did i have to be your first failure!! basket... hah...

i didn't realise that your morale can affect your performance so much.... i was in a pretty good mood all these while, doing my job and all.... but then suddenly this morning, all the new specs that has juz came in, plus my batch were called into one of the office by all the platoon sergeants.... i had a bad feeling when i heard bout it... all my fears came true the moment we stepped in... they were telling us all their stupid rules and regulations which i have been briefed before but never really followed cause i juz think its juz damn stupid and unfair.... like how we're are supposed to fall in every morning at 5.30 with the platoon even if we're not the duty instructor that day.... ok, if thats the case, why then did i not see THEM or some of the older specs on some of the days when i fell in at 5.30 every morning for the past week?! bloody double standards.... like how we're not allowed to go back to our bunks when there's no training... so what, am i supposed to stone in my office for 2 to 3 hours looking at the damn bloody wall juz waiting for the next lesson? then HE told us that if we were not happy with what they said, we should sound off to them... yea, do you think we're that stupid? we talk back to you and we'll be blacklisted for the rest of our ns life... after their stupid "briefing", i totally felt demoralised.... couldn't concentrate on my work... that was when i decided to take off for tmr.... juz couldn't take the tension anymore.... screw them and their stupid rules!


Riz lost himself at 6/17/2006 10:27:00 pm

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